And an author she be.

If you weren't okay.

why'd you get up and walk?

We sat, we talked.

we laughed.

we had some good times.

but we're in hell.

in hell.

in hell.

IN HELL.

They were asking, if everything was alright.

we kept smiling,

we kept saying yes, it fine.

We're liars.

we're liars.

WE'RE LIARS.

I'm not going to stop,

and I don't really plan on cutting back.

and I know you don't either.

I've been losing my grip.

editing, cutting, redoing.

I should just throw it all out.

rewrite my book.

you know, authors do it all the time.

lives, that you'll never know of.

stories, that you'll never read.

lessons, that you'll never learn.

If it was so simple,

we would all do it.

and no one would exist.

we'd forget everything.

suffering from a memory loss...

that we called upon.

I don't have that...great vocabulary.

that's going to make me look fantasticly smart.

I don't have that great voice.

that's going to be heard, and inspire thousands.

I don't have that smile.

That's going to make you believe I'm perfect,

because my eyes are betraying me.

You're reading me...

and that's alright i'm...a public book.

the library of mistakes.

the constitution of stupidity.

I have it all.

in here.

i'm not putting pen to paper..

because, i can't write very well.

and that penmanship is terrible.

I'm a modern girl,

putting fingers to buttons.

twitching the one's and the zero's inside that motherboard.

technically advanced.

technically metaphorically outstandingly,

out of words.

my mouth is always moving, talking about one thing or another.

and I'm always willing to say something.

but the only things that are heard,

are the things i don't say.

my eyes betrayed me.

my fingers betrayed me.

and i can't control my mind anyways.

maybe if i just walked away.

and left my body on the ground.

that new book might be better.

because it's in here.

it says whatever i want it to.

it's winning, whatever award i say.

and when you read it, by looking into my eyes.

its suddenly a best-seller.

since so many people are spending their time.

one glance is our first chapter.

and our speech is coming to the 5th.

the last one, was when you said goodbye...and we never spoke again.

I hope you liked the book i'm thinking.

but i know you probably didn't.

its amazing.

every word you know.

is in there.

every lesson that you were looking to learn is in there.

maybe if i read it to you

it'd be more clear.

then again...

it'd take days, and i'm not into spending my time.

that piano is playing,

i can hear your voice.

but i'm just crazy.